Here I sit in California, away from my week old baby, thinking how awesome life is. I never realized I would experience such a gambit of emotions over such a short period of time. Fear, helplessness, joy, excitement, happiness, you name it I experienced it. I think ahead and know without a doubt I would do absolutely anything for my little guy. Although it has only been just a few days, he has touched me, emotionally, more deeply than I ever thought possible.
It’s hard for me to imagine what will happen in the future, but I hope one thing will be certain, my ability to be a good dad.
I know it is going to be fun!
I look back at all the things people would say about their kids; How difficult it was or how tired they are. I always thought “yeah right, i don’t see how you can be tired” or “it can’t be that hard”. Well…how wrong I was! I was SO TIRED the first 3 nights, I thought I was going to fall over sleeping. As far as the difficulty, it’s difficult to adjust and learn but it’s the good kind of difficult. The kind that builds a person into something better. I look forward to the challenges I am about to face with fear, but also with excitement. Because I know when I look back I will see how far I have come and how much of a better person I have become.
To all the parents who ever told me it was difficult or tiring: I completely believe you and I am starting to understand your pain! 😉